I have met a girl

I am sorry for not posting anything lately. I have been focused on meeting a girl for a few months now. And just when I decided to not pursue a relationship, a beautiful incredible girl named Jennifer appears in the most random of places. Since I know one of the readers of this blog knows I am kinda talking to her directly, I have to say, you must know I really want this to work…we danced a few songs, she is just incredibly beautiful, knows how to dance, and has a very feminine soft-spokenness character…with a hard streak of humor…my dream chick haha,…and her smile…I DIE…haha…..but, I can’t go too fast. As bad as I want to talk to her….even at this time (4 am), hahahah id be a weirdo. So..I’m gonna play it cool..and see how this plays out…wish me luck.

I just KNOW I can move that apple with my mind…I JUST KNOW IT! ehrrrr!

So, I find it fumy that I want to write about this because, well, I feel a bit… embarrassed haha.

Something I have never told anyone before is the fact that sometimes, in the midst of the weird things that my mind seeps into when it’s not thinking of anything in particular, usually in boredom, I try real hard to develop my mind-reading and telekinetic skills.

Laugh. It’s ok. Part of that chuckle is probably because you have caught yourself thinking something similar at some point in your life post-adolescently. No but really, if I am sitting with nothing to do at all, and there would be a plastic bottle on my desk, and it’s really quiet, maybe even a bit warm in my room (which for some reason, makes it easier for me to get bored), I would stare at the bottle and think “Hmm, if everything in the world has mass, then, a thought has some sort of mass in your braind,” (it’s true, microscopic electrical currents are the messengers of your minds processes, or something along those lines) “So, maybe I can think really hard about moving that bottle and it might move.” I would then proceed to distort my face in whatever I feel it would shape into when one puts forth effort into a thought (though I don’t ever feel what I think “Professor X” feels when he moves shit with his mind, because he gets tired physically. So I think I am doing it wrong)  Well, as I stare at the bottle in the same position it has been since I placed it there with my hands, I just stop and pass off the idea as nonsense. Although I just realized, I never actually dismiss it as something impossible, but more of, a sort of incapableness on my part hahahaha.

Well, if you have known me recently, you’d know I pride myself in having a great nutritional diet. Part of it has to do with the fact that it’s the only realistic way I think I can develop powers hahahaha. Carrots, for example, are great for your eyes. ” Aha! I want to have the sharp vision of an eagle so I am going to gorge on carrots!” lmao.  I don’t gorge on carrots, but I eat carrots for various reasons ( I eat raw carrots because Bigs Bunny is cool), but one of those reasons is the fact that I actually feel I am bettering my eyesight. Can I note a difference in my eyes? Eh, I guess so. Either that or I am fooling myself into thinking I see better hahahhaa.

Note: I am laughing along the way because, again, it’s the first time I actually explore these thoughts or even write it down on something. It’s funny to me, and it makes me feel bashful haha. You should see me in real life. I can’t get rid of this sheepish smile.

Anyways, you know what? I wouldn’t have it any other way. I may not be able to move bottles with my mind, yet, or know what song is going to come up next on my shuffled play list (though I have scared myself with strings of lucky guesses), but isn’t it wonderful to think you are capable of being greater and better than you currently are? And actively trying to achieve the best you you can possibly create? Isn’t that what we are supposed to achieve in life? I don’t want to settle for whatever it is I am. I want to be able to surprise myself in my capabilities. Or better yet, not surprise, but to know that if I keep up good practices with myself, I know I will be smarter, faster, stronger. Hopefully, one day, I will be someone one person can look up to, and be a catalyst for the change they will overcome all on their own for the better.

Well, whoever reads this. Have you ever had any similar experiences or thoughts? What powers do you wish to develop most!?

I always say this to my brothers “Every day you wake up, try to make it a day where you will be better than you were yesterday, in any way possible.” I stand by it.

Goodnight!

And so a new birth occurred from it’s ashes…a very little amount of ashes >_>

So, over the past few days, I have been debating whether to just close this blog or not. I gave it 2 good posts and I felt, ugh…I don’t want to go out and find things online to talk about. I instantly realized that I was looking at it like a job! which defeats the “pleasure” purpose of even doing this. Soo, I decided, I am going to write about whatever I want to write about.

Point of blogging, isn’t it? Well, I didn’t look at it that way at first. I wanted to measure up to the better blogs and not make people disinterested in what I have to say. I mean, how else am I going to get tons of people to visit my blog? Wait…”better blogs?”

Why are the other blogs “Better?” What constitutes as a better blog? Is it the amount of subscribers they have? The length of its existence? How many pictures or comments can be found? I realized it’s all subjective, and I was guilty of making a matter of opinion an objective observation and creating a sort of superficial goal. So, despite only having 2 recent posts, I am pleased to announce that this paper will be taking a new direction!

I know, haha, sounds ridiculous right? Well, whatever it may be, it feels right, and I think I’ll be providing so much more content, more personal, more interesting, just..more! than I would have ever done trying to live up to the success of others.

So….do you ever secretly think that maybe, just maybe, if you tried real hard, you can develop powers? Of course not…you are an adult, you have no time for childish ideas….right…

Oh no! I Think That Tree is going to Eat Your Driveway!

So the past week, I have been having a really rough time going to sleep. I don’t know exactly what it is; I figured my room was too hot, even with my window wide open! (the wind was just NOT wanting to enter my apartment!) Anyway, as I laid awake, of course with lids closed to try to act as if I’m falling asleep, a thought kept seeping into my restless mind each night and it was both beautiful and scary. (I’ll explain the scary in a few):

Nature, in all her patient and massive splendor, is claiming, slowly, what is rightfully hers from us, the humans.

“Oh HI plant growing from the steel! =D”

Though, it’s all an everlasting battle, and it might seem like Mother Nature is losing at times (think of the increasing demand of timber, the cutting down of rainforests around the world, food shortages, etc), but Mama tree packs a punch filled with a stamina that will, let’s be honest, make any man “green” with envy (See what I did there!? haha!).

When one sees fern growing on old buildings or roots of massive trees breaking through cement in certain places, you can realize the perfect and effortless determination of nature to claim those parts of earth back. Abandoned iron furnaces with grass and trees growing from within the broken down and desolate walls of  what used to be a busy place. It just seems that where Man doesn’t succeed, nature will. Check out the link below for pics of Nature eating part of Detroit going on this current moment! (It’s actually a tad sad):

http://www.jamesgriffioen.net/index.php?/photography/what-is-human/

But, instead of battling, why don’t we learn to better co-exist? Oh wait, we do!

On Thursday night, as I lay there in contempt for the summer heat lingering in my room despite the gaping window in the middle of winter (my heater was off), I had a string of thoughts of how man was now using ways to co-exist with nature just as I was hoping for a breeze to cool my room. I thought of wind turbines being set up, with ever growing imperativeness emphasized by the media, scientists, and scholars. I thought of the bright ideas of ethanol, and how the idea came to be, motivated by the visions of a cleaner, less polluted world. The article that my previous blog was about mentioned farmers using ancient Mayan techniques to grow and distribute crops. These are all very important due to the fact that it’s all with the intent to preserve nature. Where solar panels light up our cities, as it already does in some places on a very small scale. With “going green” ads advertised like its going to create a 200% increase in revenue and whole, unprocessed foods are marketed as healthier. I fell asleep around the time I was picturing Lady GaGa bringing “Eve”‘s garment back into fashion.

Friday night, as I was getting ready for bed, I went to open my window (to comfort my conscious in thinking that although it had not helped at all the last 2 days, that today will be different >_>). A HUMONGOUS FLYING ROACH SCATTERED INSIDE seeking shelter from the imminent rainstorm that was going to pound Manhattan. I gasp, partly because I have not seen a roach that size since visiting my house in the Dominican Republic, and partly because I felt Nature heard my thoughts the night before and was in disagreement. I hurried and grabbed the first spray can of whatever, because squishing it would prove to be a bigger mess than suffocating it. I grabbed a spray of shoe waterproofing protector and doused the monstrosity until it wasn’t moving.  I immediately closed my window and thought, maybe nature isn’t always the best choice. Am I going to risk sleeping with sizable bugs for a chance at a gust of wind entering my room? No, I’ll sweat thanks. As I lay in bed, I then thought of the vision of what the future was like for people in the last century, and still is like for most of us today. Flying cars and teleportation devices cramped our cities and communal centers. Robots and humans share the streets, both grabbing wifi waves WITH THEIR BRAINS/ROBOT HEAD! Tourist destinations involved zero-gravity lessons for safe space trips. Looking back at all the cartoons, all the movies, and books I have come across, our natural habitat as is known here on earth was no where to be seen. I figure, to have a plant in your home will be a luxury. Nature, will have lost the battle…or actually will win it if humans decide to live in space.

So with 2 very different approaches as to what our future will be like, one nature embracing, the other being where nature is virtually non-existent, what do you think our world will be like? What approach would we take as a better one, or will we even fully attain one or the other?

We have to keep in mind, we have been using and envisioning both for decades, maybe centuries (just a few centuries though, not sure if the flourishing times of the European Renaissance conceived a slight thought of flying cars.)  And both cannot exist with each other. Unless, some sort of revolution occurs and we will be split between earth people and space people, which sounds…Avatarish.

Your thoughts?

“The Drop-out Revolution”

I was killing time on, errr, time.com, when I came across an article named “10 Ideas for the Next 10 Years” (http://www.time.com/time/specials/packages/article/0,28804,1971133_1971110,00.html)

I was reading through the interesting list/articles when I reached one named “The Dropout Economy.” This hit close to home, since I have less than a semester left until I get my degree from Penn State University, and have made no follow up plans to make time to return to Pennsylvania and finish my curriculum. The article points out the rising number of high school and college drop outs, which came as a surprise:

“Middle-class kids are taught from an early age that they should work hard and finish school. Yet 3 out of 10 students dropped out of high school as recently as 2006, and less than a third of young people have finished college,”

Just reading that excerpt alone makes me want to finish the few classes I have left so that I don’t fall in that statistic (and never again talk about my ignominious incompletion of my college career.) But the article takes a mini turn for the better:

“But what if the millions of so-called dropouts are onto something? As conventional high schools and colleges prepare the next generation for jobs that won’t exist, we’re on the cusp of a dropout revolution, one that will spark an era of experimentation in new ways to learn and new ways to live.”

The rest of the article, which you can read from the link above, goes on briefly describing some examples:  From farmers mixing modern technology with ancient Mayan techniques (think slash-and-burn) to build a new food distribution system to how my generation handles the retirement finances of the aging boomers.

Well, this article got me thinking on what people believe success and failure are when it comes to education. Do you think that to have a good life in the US, one needs to complete a college education? Of course not, but it will make it easier…or will it? Keeping in mind the changes affecting us this very day (unemployment, market instability/insecurity, outsourcing of jobs, etc), we are , and are bound to be, living in a different environment than the past few decades. Intelligence, to me, is not learned, but acquired, either through birth or through conscious understanding, and college is an institution where this intelligence gets put to work to fill your mind with a wealth of knowledge from all aspects of life. Can one learn on their own all the things one can learn at a university? Yes you can, but with godlike discipline and a very strong will to do so.

Anyways, my point is, our way of life is twisting and turning to fit into the mold formed by today’s environment.  I feel, the next couple of years/decades, we will be seeing a lot of success sprouting from non-collegiate atmospheres that will change the way some things work, permanently even, once people who never went to college, or never finished, get out of the mindset of “This is where I belong due to my lack of education.”  Analysis and numbers are going to give way to creativity and innovations.

I’m telling you guys, as soon as we start getting comfortable with something, that’s when you have to prepare for change the most. How you adapt, determines your survival.

Have a Happy (and Rainy, and Cold, And Windy if you are in most of the Northeast) Saturday night!

P.S.- First post EVER….so once I get the hang of how to post my thoughts, things will read much smoother =).

Oh The Discipline That This Is Going To Take…

So, this is my first blog post, of which I have been interested in creating ever since one of my best friends created hers. And she is coming up with really great posts. Check her out at, Fragmented Feelings . As for me, I think a lot; a ton more after reading the book “Atlas Shrugged” which I wish to discuss on here as well, because it opened up a lot of places in my mind I let go dormant. Well, let’s see what I can make of this…